Good morning. It is cold & snowy here in Vermont this morning as I finally find myself sitting down at my desk, with a blank blogger page open in front of me, and actually have words to put on the page. At the end of 2012 I had such productive and BIG plans for the beginning of 2013...and now..as we are well into February..I've barely done any of it.
I've lost my way a bit......As most of you know...Our much loved and sweet dog Odie passed away on December 21st and since then I can not seem to get out of my own way....
I've been doing my best at attempting to keep up with things and carrying on with life... as, of course, we must... but as hard as I try..I can not seem to work my way to the surface. Keeping life going amidst the sadness of loss is hard..we move on...keep going...do what we can...but it's still SO hard.
In an effort to get my life..and in the process...OUR lives and MY WORK... back in order...I need to make a few adjustments....I realized a few things Sunday evening as I was uploading new offerings to my website for my web show...I did not write one single story for anyone!!! And then I realized..I haven't written a single creative sentence since Odie passed away!!I think that is when this whole situation hit me and I realized "somethings gotta give"..............
REALIZATIONS...
*I signed up for a new session of online writing classes the first week in January and I haven't been back since..thank goodness they are open classes or I would have lost my enrollment!
*I haven't written a single creative sentence since Odie passed away!!
*I spend so much time chatting on Facebook about what I plan to do that I don't have time to do any of it!!
*My customers are waiting for orders!!!!
*I am losing track of things and getting forgetful and disorganized.
*I've lost touch with my blog and all it's followers.....
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Well..I am starting fresh this morning.....with some adjustments. I am taking a step back from the social media..(ie)..Facebook.......I may still share or comment..now and again......but for a while..until I get myself and the rest of this house back on track...I'm scaling back!
I WILL still be here on my blog..and I will still give my morning greeting on my website :)
I WILL still be here on my blog..and I will still give my morning greeting on my website :)
Last week we invited a new puppy into our home...a yellow lab...a
clumsy, floppy, brown eyed boy named Oliver "Ollie"... that has helped
me (and all of us) tremendously..he's at my feet right now..he is not a
replacement for Odie..as no one could ever be....but we needed him and
he needed us.. ...
*I had forgotten just how much work puppies are*
I am off now to pick up the house, take Ollie out for his late morning walk, doing my first exercise for my writing class and sitting down at my work table and making headway on catching up with my orders and getting ahead of the game!
Wishing you a wonderful day. :) Doreen
9 comments:
Doreen, I can sympathize with you. I had to put my cat of 20 years down last month. It hurts, I find it hard to deal with. I have gotten behind, ignored my blog, worrying all the time and I can't function. I am stressed, worried, a mess in general. Sometimes we do have to regroup. Your post made me think too, thank you for that. Big hugs for the loss of your "child". Congrats on the new puppy. Spring is coming and maybe we can both get ourselves back in order.
OH Eileen..I am so sorry!!! How you described you are feeling is exactly how I fee. LOST....
HUGS TO YOU..feel better!
Dearest Doreen...My heart goes out to you in your sorrow. Although no one could ever take Odie's place, perhaps Oliver shall fill a part of your broken heart.
The year past was an exceptionally difficult one for our household as well...the passing of three members in our beloved pet family. So much sadness, yet an abundance of love given and received whilst with us...a sweet blessing truly.
Wishing you much joy with your newly arrived youngster!
With gentle hugs...
Judy xo
Big, tight hugs to you~
Love~
Smiles~
Cheering for you and your creative heart!
Praying you find little moments of joy that grow into wonderful things!
i often wonder why we aren't better equipped to deal with loss since it is a natural part of our being.
just reading this my eyes well with tears for your loss.
it is so hard to lose our babies. they are family. they are the kind of family that stays with you, that doesn't have opinions about who you are or what you do. they don't care if you are needy or a little off. they just think you are a grand. the best. they are the unconditional love that we aspire to.
i am so glad that you have found a new little soul who needs you as much as you need it. i think that puppies are the universe's way of saying "i am sorry. i know it is tough and hurts. what you had was wonderful and this will be too, in its own way. this little bundle of energy will buoy you when your own has been depleted and comes complete with potty training, puppy breath, teething, whimpering to keep you busy. the unbridled love that all of this brings will give your heart a little quiet time to heal while you, your mind and body are working on raising this little fella. enjoy!"
big hugs to you. kudos on the self care.
and don't worry about the lack of stories with your new creations. they spoke what you couldn't.
OH Doreen, hang in there....I know that your blog follers and friends will be here for you. Sometimes it's just too hard to blog, I know I have struggled but that's the best thing about our blogging world, everyone is still there waiting to pick up like you never left!!!!
It's so wonderful for you to have a new puppy, he will be lots of work but how special he must be!!!!
Hugs,
Mags
xxx
There are no words - just know that I know how you are feeling.
Oliver knows he has a job - to make you smile and laugh again. Odie will always be in your heart - and that is the way it should be.
Hugs
Thank you so much ladies, I appreciate your words so very, very much and I am sorry for your loses as well :(.
much love,
doreen
Sometimes we just have to step back and do what we have to do. I´m glad you´ll be here with your blog.
I´m so happy you have got a new little puppy in your house - that is good for you
and I´m excited to hear how things will work out for you with the montly update instead. Can´t decide if I need to do a shedule too.
Sending big hugs your way my sweet friend
xoxo Tina
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